Out from my tortoise shell....

2 years of not sitting down together for a meal. I was kinda forced to sit down this time after a few times of invitation. Met up with my ex for a lunch today. In fact, I told a fren that I really did not wish to have this moment at all as I had been feeling guilty all these while and had been avoiding him since then. Another reason for avoiding is I can forsee I will not have any more topic of conversation with him if we met. I involved another couple which had also known my ex since uni time. Didn't have much conversation with him, instead it's my couple fren who did all the talking with him. He hasn't change much, and I'm glad that i climb out of the tortoise shell this time. After this, I'm more certain that I hadn't made the wrong decision, I'm more certain that I don't think I can spend the rest of my life with him.
Heard a shocking news two days ago. Someone I consider as a good superior and a good husband with happy family told me he just divorced. This is a real shock as
I always thought that he's having a happy life with good wife and kids and he had been working hard all day. Keep me thinking that what's wrong with this field. Does that mean that people in this field doesn't deserve a good family life? Why is all the colleague around me are leading to a divorce life. Seems like I'm force to make a choice on whether to lead a happy family or a career lonely life......